People often ask me how I am doing. I normally say fine, or good, or even great. It of course isn’t always the honest truth, as we all know we have canned answers.
It has been 3 years since I lost my son, and 2 years since I lost my daughter. It is tough, it is often a nightmare.
What I wish people could understand is that we didn’t just lose children. We lost dreams, we lost laughter, we lost future trips to Disney world, and all the plans we had.
Just the other day I saw a little boy jumping off some stairs. He was so brave. I then looked over at my beautiful wife, and saw by her sweet look that she was hurting, yet concealing it for the uneducated eye. I realized then that she was seeing Johnny through this little boy. This cute boy was the age of our Johnny now. Little Johnny, would be jumping off the stairs and showing how brave he was to anyone that would be watching.
When you lose a child, you lose so much.